candra,lizzie, and i swam all day today at my dads pool. it was fun but i think i burned my head. anways it was a good calm day. we leave for mississippi on wednesday! i cant wait. but im totally freaking out about leaving the baby. it will be the longest i have ever ben away from her. crazy. but it will be ok. cant wait to see karlie. and candra and i have some rockin tunes for the drive.

Good song. so i have been so freaking busy this summer. especially this month, my whole july is booked pretty much. i love it. i cant get enough in! i just want to do everything. i have been swimming alot because its something both me and the baby love to do so its great. and hanging out with all my friends and family alot. i am so luck to have so many people in my life.never a dull moment. its great. really great.

so our 4th of july was good, we went to 2 carnivals, a parade, 2 bbq's and did fireworks. all in 2 days! very eventful. the baby liked the fireworks too, the louder ones startled her a bit but she didnt cry or anything. and all the food was fabulous!!

things i have to look forward to are THE INCUBUS CONCERT ON THURSDAY!and then friday we are going to see harry potter. then next week is MISSISSIPPI! then the weekend after that camping and then a week after that candras birthday in park city! we will all officially be 21!!!! so we are going to aprk city to the fancy club and we are gonna dress up and its gonna be so great! i think im gonna go buy a moomoo dress to wear in mississippi. i cant wait to go the beach. i cant wait period! well anyways life is pretty good besides my major lack of money! but oh well on that.

so my weekend was alright, no where near as eventful and crazy as karlies but it was pretty good. on friday we just chilled at home and vegged out, thats always nice to do sometimes. on saturday gerri and i took the bbies and my nephew ian to the zoo! the babies loved it! ian was crazy though. like hdidnt complain alot but he kept running away! we would be like looking at an animal and he would just disapear in like 20 seconds. i think i screamed IAN!!! at least a hundred times! if i ever take him again im buying a leash! but it was still fun, the black bear was up and moving around and the panguins were swimming in the water! i have not seen them in the water since i was like 12! crazy cool. but we got ice cream and by the time we left all of us were completly exhaausted. it was so fucking hott too. then that night i went out to dinner with nicole, nyki, and this travis bigelow kid we went to school with. that was kinda weird. but like i guess nicole took nicole took myki to party at a bar on friday and he was there and they met and liked eachother wich is really weird too. so she invited him. and i had my first SANDRIA exsperience. i got the kiwi melon one and nicole got the white peach one. hers was much better but mine was still good. then i just went home and read for a bit and passed out.

sunday i was so exhausted i just vegged all day, but by like six i was getting restless and thinking i wanted to get drunk, and just like he could read my mind jay texted me and was like "wanna watch movies and get drunk?" and all i said was "im on my way! " lol... so i went over and we had a beer and played with the puppy, then we went to applebees and i bought is dinner, and i got the white peace sangria!!! so yummy i love them. and we just sat and talked and drank for like 2 hours. it was so cool. then we went back to his place and had more beer and waitched chuck. fun stuff.

so it was an alright weekend.

all of the june birthdays are finally over! now i dont have to worry about another birthday until july. June is a crazy crazy month with my family.

the babies birthday went great though. good turn out. she went crazy on her cake! it was great. i put pics on myspace.

saturday we went drinking. first we went to this house warming party at brians co-workers house. well shes our friend too. but shes a lezbo see, and hr roomate is gay. and dont get me wrong i dont ming gay people at all,but gay people only hang out with gay people...so everyone that was there was gay! the four of us were like the only straight ones! i have never been to a party where straight people were the minority! it was soooo awkward! but they had jungle juice and that was good. then we went to adams and drank there and played kings cup! got pretty drunk. then we went to beto's at like 4 in the morning and fucking chris got out and peed in the parking lot! right in front of the drive through window! fucker. then we watched anchor man and candra and i passed out for like 2 hours on adams water bed. i really dont like water beds. all in all a good night. but the next day was a bitch. hangover!!!

today taran and i took the babies swimming. they love it so much! it is the cutest thing ever. they just giggle and laugh and like kick their legs. its so much fun, i just love being a mom.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIZZIE MAE!

can you believe my baby girl is 1 today? crazy!

So i realized today that now that im 21 there is nothing left to look forward to. i mean its the last age that opens up more options. Now we just get old. 21 is the age everyone wants to be forever. Its the perfect age. And its true. I dont want to get any older, i dont want to get old. I'm so scared of getting old. I know its weird but i cant help myself from thinking what am i gonna look like when im old? what will lizzie do when i die? what if brian dies before me? what if i die before him? its crazy but all night i could think of nothing else. i actually got sick to my stomach! im a crazy person! and the worst question of all...how am i going to die? but i dont want to know. ignorance is bliss.crazy shit.

lizzie's birthday is on friday!!! cant wait for it!

Little girls are so dramatic. All girls are dramatic but little girls are WAY overly dramatic. See lily has been staying with me this week, she will be here for a few weeks. She is out of school for the summer and she drives my mom crazy all day so I decided to give them both a break and let her live here for a few weeks. Its great having her, she helps me out with the baby alot and with the cleaning and cooking. And we decided to go on a diet together. (she is a little overweight and its causing problems with her at school and at home.) So its nice to have somone to help keep you on the right track. But the thing about lily is... She whines! And complains! About everything! " I want this!" "why cant we do this?" "I wanna do this" "I'm bored!" "I'm hungry!" And you know what, its driving me crazy! So I made a rule, everytime she complains or whines she has to run up and down the stairs 5 times! LOL! So we shall see if it works. It will help with her diet and hopefully with the complaining. I need to do something or I wont make it the next few weeks!

The girls are supposed to be going to the club tomorrow. that should be fun. im not being dd though! screw that! i wanna drink, they all have had their time now its mine. lol. I still have not gona to a liquor store because I have had lily and brian and i dont really have any free time. So hopefully this weekend or next week he can take me. i cant wait to see everyhting they have. is that so lame? a little. but it is exciting. you all remember your first time

Peace out homies

So my birthday was awesome. Lots of people came, making it so i didnt have to buy a drink for myself all night long. Well brian bought me one, but technically i didnt buy it because i dont work so all the money is his. But i got a great variety of drinks and so now i have some idea what to order next time i go to a bar. I got really wasted though. I have not been that drunk since before i married brian. i passed out in my car. and i had a hangover all day yesterday. sucked ass.

im going to the bar with jay tonight. probably shouldnt because i have like no money but i think he will buy me one or two drinks and i probably wont want to drink any more then that anyways. we shall see.i need money to book my flight to mississippi. i wish i had a way to make a fast 300 bucks. that would pay for my trip. gotta think...

people are so fucking annoying. how hard is it really to close a fucking door when you leave the basement??? we wouldnt even have to worry about it if it wasnt for the fact that THEIR dogs come down and piss on OUR shit. i mean come the fuck on! its not like we are asking for a big fucking favor, just close the fucking door so i dont kill your damn dogs. its the least you can do after all the shit they have already ruined!

and when did it become ok to just go rifling through other peoples shit when their not home? just because we live under their roof does not give them the right to go through our shit or mess up my system! i keep the fish tank half full because i have to carry it!!!! STOP FILLING IT UP! and if i make a mess in my room its because i like messes. im a messy person and i like it that way. dont clean up my shit. just stay out of my fucking business god dammitt!!!!

ok im done...lol

Its my birthday tomorrow!!!!!

so my birthday is on sunday... yeah no bar or club in salt lake city is open past 12 on sundays. the bar we decided we are going to closes at 11. we just found that out today. so we have to go at like 7 to get in some good drinking time, which is ok but i was hoping to stay out late that night. so i guess we will just have to continue my birthday celebration at jesses and gerri's house after the bar. fucking utah sucks so bad. the whole fucking state goes on lock down on sundays. its ridiculous. shouldnt people get to have the choice to drink and stay out as late as they want on sundays? who are they to fucking say we cant? ooooo im just so mad. they should treat sunday as any other day. i understand all the businesses need a day of rest...why not monday???? no one goes out on mondays!!! sunday is still a weekend day. come on people! anyways... so hopefully my birthday will work out ok and people will still come out with us. im thinking they still will. wish you guys were here to come out with us.

peace out